二十多岁的我还是喜欢看动画片，会对稀奇古怪的小东西着迷，跟遇到的猫猫狗狗打招呼，看到喜欢的人会傻笑会脸红。

明明都2020年了，但我好像永远都长不大。

In my twenties, I still like watching cartoons. I would be fascinated by strange little things. I would say hello to the cats and dogs I met. When I saw the people I liked, I would giggle and blush.

It's 2020, but I never seem to grow up.

很喜欢作家韩松落写的一段话：我们似乎总会在某一年，爆发性地长大，爆发性地觉悟，爆发性地知道某个真相，让原本没有什么意义的时间的刻度，成了一道分界线。

I like a paragraph written by the writer Han Songluo: it seems that we always grow up, realize and know the truth in a certain year, which makes the meaningless time scale become a dividing line.

小时候心心念念着学校小卖部的零食和玩具，后来和朋友去网吧玩一次游戏是我一个星期中最兴奋的事。

可现在，它们都没那么吸引我了，而我似乎也找不到替代品，能让我再次满心欢喜，对明天充满期待。

When I was a child, I thought about the snacks and toys in the school canteen. Later, I went to the Internet bar to play a game with my friends, which was the most exciting thing in a week.

But now, they are not so attractive to me, and I don't seem to find a substitute that can make me happy again and look forward to tomorrow.

长大这件小事，随时随地都在发生。

Growing up is a small matter, it happens everywhere.

有一天在食堂的时候，我突然想起来小时候吃的一种饼，然后我想到故乡，想到童年，想到去世的你。都是遥远的，不可得的。

喧闹的食堂，氤氲的饭的气味。我的眼泪又出来了。我想念你想到绝望。

One day in the canteen, I suddenly remembered a kind of cake I had when I was a child. Then I thought of my hometown, my childhood, and my dead you. All are far away, not available.

Noisy canteen, dense smell of rice. My tears came out again. I miss you and think of despair.

小时候觉得在家看一天电视就很快乐，吃再多也不会胖，晚上超过八点睡觉就是熬夜 ，不化妆也很漂亮 ，穿得再土也很可爱。

那个时候希望快点长大，那样就可以做很多我喜欢做的事。

When I was a child, I felt that watching TV for a day at home would be very happy. No matter how much I eat, I would not be fat. I would stay up late when I went to bed over eight o'clock in the evening. I was also very beautiful without makeup. Even though I was dressed in dirt, I was very cute.

At that time, I hope to grow up quickly, so that I can do a lot of things I like to do.

可是现在长大了，做了许多想要做的事，同时也做了很多不想做的事，都由不得自己， 我们最终还是变成了自己讨厌的样子。

But now we grow up, do a lot of things we want to do, but also do a lot of things we don't want to do, we can't help ourselves, we finally become our own hate.

有时候会想，现在网络发达，联络明明更方便了，但我们和很多人的关系却越来越远。

都说人生何处不相逢，但生命来来往往，来日并不方长，有些转身，真的就是一生。

Sometimes I think that with the development of Internet, it is more convenient to contact, but our relationship with many people is getting farther and farther away.

It is said that where life does not meet, but life comes and goes, the future is not long, some turn around, really is life.

都这么大了，连自己想干嘛都不知道，就像那句话，远方容纳不了肉身，家乡容纳不下灵魂，可悲。

They are so big that they don't even know what they want. Just like that sentence, the distance can't hold the body, and the hometown can't hold the soul. It's sad.

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